So now that I’m realizing the idea of sharing the subjective experiences which opened the door to profound spiritual awareness. No, I’m not talking going to some church and catching the spirit. I’m talking self awareness that we as human beings have a dual existence. I can’t elaborate on this concept right now, as I progress in revealing what I have experienced then what I have stated would be apparent. Please have an open mind because we have been taught certain things about spirituality and when we experience or hear of an experience that clashes with what we were taught, then we tend to want to justify the learned beliefs.
Now I’m reviewing what I have written, I have written the material which spans from 1999-2006. The first stage to the spiritual awareness was lucid dream recall. My original intent to writing down the dreams was too track whether there was a connection as to what was going on in my daily life. The second intention was to take those dreams and see if i can create a short story based on my dreams. I have not put in thought or take action to do the latter.
So now I look at the file on my memory stick. I find that some content is missing. I begin to search my papers to find the missing content. I remember printing out the each content when I wrote it. I could not find the printed work. I looked at my old 3.5 floppy discs. But it was not saved on those either. Then it occurred to me I may have made a back up on a CD. So I search all my CD’s (good thing I never throw away saved computer data) and lord and behold I find it. All the original content from 1999-2002, over 100 pages of text. So I may have to condense a lot of written content.